CIRCLE - Chapter 10

 CIRCLE

Chapter 10


I sit on the bed in Eri’s room. Koharu is sitting next to me and Eri is lying on the bed crying.
“Eri, what happened between you and her?”
She keeps crying.
“She told a lie about it, right?”
“No… it’s not a lie… but it’s not the truth, too!” She cries out.
“So what happened?”
She keeps quiet for a while. But finally she breaks the silence.
“It happened a few days after the day I broke up with you…” She dries her tears. “That time… I was really in a bad mood… I didn’t want to hurt you, but I really hurt you. I felt so bad about that…”
“I know…” I hold her hands.
“That night she came to my room and asked me for it. I was not in the mood to do that you know?? I told her that I had just broken up with you, and I felt bad because it was like that I betrayed you… But she ignored me. I couldn’t enjoy it, you know? And I finally cried!”

CIRCLE - Chapter 9

 CIRCLE

Chapter 9

We returned to the hotel at 5.p.m. Because of the cameras again, I couldn’t ask Eri anything else. She looked as if there was nothing happened, but I’m sure she was crying that moment. I can’t understand the reason why. There must be something or someone hurting her.
After taking a bath, I lock my room and go to Eri and Reina’s room.
“Eri?” I knock on the door.
The door is opened and I see her face. She tries to smile at me.
“Come in, Sayu.”
I come in and she closes the door behind me. I sit down on the sofa and look at her.
“Now you can tell me the reason.”
“For what?”
I glare at her.
“We’re best friends, Eri. Tell me everything bothering you.”
She bows her head in silence. She slowly comes to sit next to me.
“Ano…”
“Wait, where’s Reina? Why she’s not here?”
She keeps quiet.
“So she’s the reason, right? Tell me what she did?”
“Maybe… she’s staying with Jun now…”
“What?”

CIRCLE - chapter 8

 CIRCLE

 Chapter 8:


“Nee, Koharu-chan.”
“What?”
“You should come back to your room now.”
“Why?” She raises her eyebrows.
“You must talk to Mittsi. You have to solve this problem without hurting her, ok?”
“But I don’t want to leave now…” She sighs.
“You must do this now. Tomorrow we will start making DVD magazine. How can we start with her sad face?”
“Nee, you tell me to comeback to Mittsi? You don’t worry that I’ll do something with her?”
“No, I trust you, Koharu-chan.”
She bows her head disappointedly.
“What’s wrong?”
“Of course… I’m glad that you trust me… But I still want to see a jealous Sayu…”
“Baka” I touch her forehead with mine. Then I kiss on her lips.
“Oyasumi nasai.”
“Oyasumi.”

CIRCLE - Chapter 7

 CIRCLE

Chapter 7

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“Michishige-san, this is Kusumi Koharu, the 7th gen member. From now on, you’ll be her mentor.”
“Me? Her mentor?”
“Michishige-san, hajimemashite. Doozo yoroshiku onegaishimasu~~

*
“Koharu-chan! How many times have I told you about that? Don’t walk with your right hand and right leg moving together!”

“Koharu-chan! Don’t yell loudly like that! You’ve made a lot of damages on my ears!”

“Don’t annoy me anymore! Why are you so annoying like that?”

*
“Michishige-san, you see, I’m taller than you now.”
“I see, I see.”
“I’ll also be cuter than you.”
“No way. I’m always the world’s cutest.”

*
“Michishige-san, I’m 16 now. Am I pretty?”
“Yes, you’re an annoying pretty girl.”

*
“Why did you do this when you don’t have any feeling for me?”
“How do you know that I don’t have any feeling for you?”
“What do you know about my feeling for you?”

“I love you, Sayu-chan.
***

Hitori ni shinaide - Part 1

                  

Hitori ni shinaide

 

 Part 1: Left or right?


“Here, Koharu-chan.”
The shorter girl grasped the younger girl’s hand and pulled her away.
“Wow, the lake is so beautiful today!”
Sitting on the bench, the taller girl kept quiet, gazing at the ground.
“Koharu-chan, say ah~”
“Huh?”
“Ah~”
Waiting Koharu to do as she told, Sayumi took some food and gently feed her younger girlfriend.
“Is it delicious?”
“Yeah...”
“Aww, I’m so happy.”
Smiling brightly, Sayumi took a tissue and brushed the food left on Koharu’s face.
“Sayumi...”
“Hm?”
“I have something important to talk to you...”

CIRCLE - Chapter 6

 CIRCLE

Chapter 6

“Koharu-chan?... What are you doing here?”
My heart seems to drop on the floor when I see her face.
She just stares at me without saying a word. Then she suddenly comes near to embrace me.
“Koharu-chan?”
“… I miss you.”

I’m too stunned to say anything. I keep quiet.
“You can consider me a person to replace Kamei-san, you can also consider me a kid. I’ll never complain about that anymore. But please don’t avoid me like that. I can’t stand it anymore…”
She holds me more tightly. I feel her tears dropping on my shoulder.
“No, Koharu-chan… Mittsi will hurt…”
“Mittsi, Mittsi, why do you worry about her but not worry about me at all?”
“She’s a kind girl while I’m just a selfish one… you two will be happy together.”
“Of course she will be happy…”
She stops embracing me and turns to face me.
“…But not with me!” she cries out. “I can’t make everyone happy! I just choose the person I love! Why don’t you understand me??”

CIRCLE - Chapter 5

 CIRCLE

 Chapter 5

After that day, I avoid meeting and talking to Koharu. I only meet her at the dance room, but we say nothing at all. I don’t look at her, because I’m afraid that if I look at her, I won’t be able to look away.
There’s nothing different between a day and the day before or after it. Everyday, I come back to my home after practicing; I lie on my bed and hug myself to get rid of loneliness. But it can’t be helped. I feel so lonely. I miss her. I really miss her very much.

When will I forget her?

In the first few days, I think I’ll forget her soon, like Eri. I have loved Eri for more than 4 years, but I have almost forgotten her easily. Maybe I don’t really love Eri. I only want to be cared for by her. I only need a person to embrace me when I’m sad. My feeling for Koharu may be the same.

However,
The more time passes, the more I miss her. I miss the feeling when I was in her warmth. I miss the feeling when she kissed away my tears and held me in her tight embrace.

So when will I forget her?

CIRCLE - Chapter 4

 CIRCLE

Chapter 4

I can’t believe what I have seen. My mind becomes empty. I feel as if time has stopped passing for me. I drop my bag on to the floor and Koharu looks back. When seeing me, she pushes Mittsi away. I run out of the room.
“Sayu-chan!” Koharu runs behind me and calls my name.
I feel too hard to breath. My tears start to drop. It hurts. My body seems to tremble uncontrollably.
Koharu finally catches my hand and pulls me back to her.
“Sayu, it’s not like what you have seen! You’re misunderstanding!”
Hearing the noise, everyone runs to us. Eri does, too.
“How will you explain it? You kiss her, do you?”
“It’s just because…”
“That’s enough! Don’t hurt me anymore!” I cry out.
“Sayu-chan?”
“Kissing me, embracing me, saying you love me… then betraying me and saying you love another? Why do all of you treat me like that?”
“Sayu-chan! I’m not Kamei-san!” She says with a crying voice. I look at her surprisingly.
“I want you to love me as Kusumi Koharu, not a person to replace Kamei-san! Don’t talk to me as if you’re talk to Kamei-san like that!”
Everyone keeps quiet. She dries her eyes and goes back to her room.
What the hell did she say? The person who needs to be angry must be me! The person who needs to cry must be me! I’m betrayed by her, right?

CIRCLE - Chapter 3

 CIRCLE

Chapter 3

When I open my eyes, Koharu had already got up. I realize that she's looking at my face, that's so blushing!
"Koharu-chan... Why don't you wake me up?"
She smiles at me and touches my blushed cheek with her hand.
"A sleeping Sayu was so cute that I didn't want to wake you up."
"You mean I'm not cute when I'm awake?" I glare at her "I'm always the world's cutest girl!!"
She bursts out laughing.
We look into the eyes of each other for a while. Her face is so close to mine that I can feel her breath. I want to kiss on her eyes, her pink cheek and her soft lips. I want to hold her tightly with my arms. I wonder what this feeling is. It's so different from what I feel when I'm with Eri. When being with Eri, I only want to be loved and cared for all the time. But when I'm with Koharu, I don't have any thought about it. Although she doesn't look after me as much as Eri, it's OK. Although she's only a naughty kid. it;s OK. At this time, all things I want to do is  just calling her name, again and again.
"Sayu-chan..."
"Huh?"
"I'm very happy now..."
I feel my heart beating more and more quickly. My face seems to turn red. Happy? It's also my feeling now. I don't know what to say. I want to talk a lot to her, but I finally say nothing. I don't know the reason why. Maybe there's something still wrong in my heart.

CIRCLE - Chapter 2

 CIRCLE

Chapter 2


When I wake up, the first thing I see is Ai-chan and Gaki-san faces. They’re sitting on the sofa and kissing. Ai-chan is cupping her girl friend’s neck with her hand, and Gaki-san’s is wrapping her arms around Ai-chan’s waist. They even don’t notice me at all. What’s the hell they are doing? Making out here, in my room? When I’m in this mood?
“Oh, you’re awake, Sayu?” Ai-chan finally sees me.
In fact, I can only sleep a little last night. I feel so tired now. I get up and look around. Koharu isn’t here. Maybe what happened last night is just a dream. I’ll never believe that there is a kiss between me and Koharu. For me, she’s always a naughty kid.
“What’s the hell you two are doing in my room?”
“Why do you ask a question like that? We’re here to look after you, Sayu-chan~~~” Ai-chan leans to kiss me on my cheek.
“But why can you two be here?”
 “When we come, the door is unlocked…”
Unlocked? Maybe I forgot to lock my room yesterday. Damn it.
Gaki-san looks at me hesitatingly. Then she holds my hands.
“Eri gets us to come here and see you. She’s worried about you. Please don’t hate her, Sayu. She’s hurt, too.”

CIRCLE - Chapter 1

 CIRCLE

CHAPTER 1


“What are you saying?”
Eri looks at me hesitatingly. Her look makes me feel as if I’m the most pitiful girl in this world.
“I’m sorry.”
“You’re joking, right?”
“I’m so sorry, Sayumi…”
She doesn’t answer my question but looks down and continue to apologize.
“Please don’t say sorry anymore!” I cry out “It only means that what you’re saying is the truth!”
Eri looks into my eyes.
“It’s the truth, Sayu. I love Reina. I have tried to stop my feeling for her, but I can’t…”
“But you said that you loved me before!”
“Please forgive me, Sayu, I misunderstood my feeling for you… I’m so sorry about that…”
It’s the end. I feel my heart stifled. I run out of her room with an empty mind. I run, run and run. I’m in conflict with Koharu, but I only continue to run toward my room without seeing her.
It’s so hurt. I feel as if everyone in this world has abandoned me.